16 February 2009 – I end my knot, but its not the end of my life. Every knot, it will end with sad or happy ending, it is up to us on how to color it. Frustrated? Who wouldn’t? After 2 years, it perish by vain easily. He came to my house this evening, we have a talk, then we make a decision that clash is the best way for both of us. There no fighting anymore, and we can follow our respective directions without worried of the jealousy. Its very hard for me to accept all this, but this the only choice that we had. He still loves me and so do I. Therefore, we decide to just be bestfriend, like we used to be while we in Sem’s 1 (2007).

I still remember, the first memory where we first met at playground near the lake. That time, I’m wearing Cheetah shirt, Cheetah track bottom and pink scarf. While him with the short and brown collar shirt. The whole evening, he accompany me playing the cradle, where I started to say in heart “wow.. deep dimples!!” We’ve met on 8 July 2007, and we tied the knot on third day of Raya’s Eve, 2007. And today, it is all over…

Maybe we dont belong together, but I’m very thankful, even tho I lose him as someone special to me, but I’ve been awarded a “not so new” friend like him where we promised to still keep in touch, helping each other and shared our sad and precious moments together like past 2 years…

Are we still loving each other? I dont really know.. before we end up our last met as couple this evening, I can see in his eyes, its brimming with tears, just like me. And before he goes, he said, “I still love you, no matter what, one day you will be mine back… and I will wait of the moment arrived where in your heart there were just only me, I will wait..” Im speechless, there nothing that I said, just “Bye bye.. you will always be my bestfriend ever had..” Starting from tomorrow, I have my new mission after back from class, keep all of his presents and pictures in box. I will keep it as my sweet moment that I wont let it disappear.

Dear God, please give me the strength for me to face the upcoming days couragely…